EXCERPT FROM MY BOOK - BRAIN MATTER ON 5-WEST- OVERCOMING MENTAL ILLNESS WITH HUMOR AND FAITH www.publishamerica.com ISBN 1-4137-9855-1

[Rev. Jenny Terrero]

THE THING I FEARED
pages 18-19
....I sat in my car, my head on the steering wheel. I cried remembering the first time he cut himself. He had been in the bathroom for a long time and I was wondering what he was up to. Sometimes he did strange things so when he came out with his face painted red it was nothing new. It wasn't until the next morning that I noticed the red makeup he put on his face rubbed off exposing the cuts. He was asleep and I realized that the red makeup he put on his face the night before was his attempt at covering up the blood and the cuts on his face that were now visible. Later when he awoke I discovered he had cuts all over his torso as well. My heart sank and I decided he was going into the hospital for his own protection and would stay until a better medication was found. The more I remembered that first time the more I cried, overwhelmed, fearful of how bad he would get. He needed so much help and I was the only one who could deal with him and help him.
When he needed me the most I fell victim to a brain aneurysm. I was so angry at myself for getting sick believing that somehow I could keep him from cutting. I could not believe such a horrible thing was happening to my youngest son."Father, you say you never give us more than we can carry...I can't do this...this is just too hard and too painful...watching my son destroy himself.. cutting himself...Lord, I prayed and fasted throughout the years that you would never allow this to happen to any of my children...now, Lord, I am forced to see my precious son like this... his beautiful mind in the condition it is in... why didn't you just take me home? It would have been better for me to die than to watch this happening to my son's beautiful spirit."

page 61 -DAILY PRAYER

Stabilize me oh LORD
mood swings negative thoughts
calm my inner pain
revive my sorry soul
heal my broken spirit

Stabilize me oh LORD
a week, a month
even a day
would be Ok

A night without shadows
no voices to hear
just pleasant dreams
and heavenly things

A night that my pillow
soaks in no tears
a night of freedom
instead of fear

Stabilize me oh LORD GOD
not doctors or man
I know that YOU can
YOU have always been faithful
my life's in YOUR hands

[Monique Owens]

I am glad that your son is okay now. I will check out his music and your blogs when I am able.

God Bless you and your family

[Rev. Jenny Terrero]

Hello Monique, What happened to my son happened after 9/11 I talk about it in my book. The power of the Holy Spirit has done a wonderful healing in him. He is doing great as a matter of fact he's at www.myspace.com/davidterrero there he sings and plays music which he has written and composed. Please check him out and spread the word. For God nothing is impossible! God Bless You and check out my other blogs on www.myspace.com/jentr --- www.womeninministry.ning.com/profile/revjennyterrerorivera ---

[Monique Owens]

Is your son doing better now?